Tuesday, September 19, 2006

I Must Hate Myself


Allow me to paint the picture...The Phillies are fresh off a sweep in Houston, are heading home to take on the lowly Cubs (61-89 overall, 28-46 road) who have Sean Marshall pitching (5.34 ERA). The Phils can smell the blood in the water as they're honing in on the NL Wild Card...this game is a gimmie right, shouldn't our confidence be high? Nope, not with our Phillies. John Lieber comes out and promptly hand-wraps the game for the Cubs with the help from some shoddy defense and Aramis Ramirez muscle (our future 3rd basemen...Gillick told me himself). Even Manuel couldn't stand watching Lieber so he goes to the pen...things get worse. Brito sucked, Sanches sucked, and Madson continues to suck! By the way Madson isn't good, sorry to inform you of that. Some people in the blogsphere think he has this reliever role figured out. Well, his ERA now stands at 5.84...so he sucks at pitching period! The offense had one good inning thanks to a Jose Hernandez grand slam, but other than that the game was a complete suck-fest!

Anyway, back to my point about hating myself. I threw in "towel" in on this season back in June. I wrestled with myself in August, and then finally snatched that "towel" back from the Baseball Gods and started believing again...I'm so stupid! The Phils are now 1.5 game back of the Wild Card, chasing the Padres. There are only 12 games remaining in the season. So although it is possible, with our Phils it seems impossible, as they seem to not be able to seize the golden opportunity before them. I'm not giving up again, I've invested too much time and energy, evidence being in this blog. Basically what I'm saying is the Phils need to win this Wild Card or I may never forgive myself. I love baseball, I love the Philadelphia Phillies...such is my life. I'm sure there are others out there commiserating with me at this very moment.

~Carson
"Why bother? It's gonna hurt me. It's gonna kill when you dessert me. This happened to me once before. Won't happen to me anymore! Why Bother?" (Weezer-Why Bother?)

28 comments:

Che said...

A Jose K grand slam? That, my friend, is a rare thing of beauty.

Padres'll start losing shortly. You just wait.

GM-Carson said...

For the record- I totally despise clowns!

Maybe we as Phillies fans are actually masochists...seeking pleasure through pain.

GM-Carson said...

Che- things are looking rather glum this morning...why do our teams suck?

Oisín/Wizlah said...

C'mon now. You didn't do this all last year? You won't do it again next year? Course you will. Why pour all your frustration and angst into one season when you can do it all the time for the rest of your life?

GM-Carson said...

Oisin, I will continue to set myself up year after year, season after season with the Phillies. I love them. I am frustrated, but my frustration dates back many years and as you implied, will continue into years to come. Dismal outlook or realistic? Love our Phils!

Los said...

To steal a line from the cubs fans, "wait 'til next year." It is frustrating, but that's what being a fan is all about, unfortunately.

GM-Carson said...

Los- I'm tired of "waiting until next year"...and I know you are too. Eventually the Phillies are going to come through for us, it just takes time.

Che said...

Glum indeed. More glumness up ahead: PSU vs. Ohio State. Baseball's not the only sport that has the power to ruin my mood.

GM-Carson said...

I hope people understood that I'll never "really" give up. I lose hope and I complain, but as a Phillies fan I'll continue to come back for more because of my undying love for them. I'm a glutten for punishment I guess.

joe said...

it was only one game... christ, am i going to have to take your shoe laces and mouthwash away?

GM-Carson said...

Joe- don't worry bro, not suicidal, just another outlet for venting frustration. If you read through the despair, you'll notice I'm still holding out hope. By the way, are you the same "Joe" on BeerLeaguer? If so, why do you think Lieberthal is so great? Not attacking you, just wondering.

joe said...

yeh, same joe.

Lieby swings a very, very nice bat *when he's healthy*. Catching has really brutalized this guy, and its a shame.

When Lieby's back and knees are gone, he looks more clueless than Nunez though.

GM-Carson said...

Joe- I've never been a big fan of Mike Lieberthal. Doesn't mean I hate him, but I just don't like him all that much. And one point in his career he was good...All-Star good. However, he is a typical banged up catcher now. He would be perfect for the AL next season, splitting time between catching and dh-ing. I still root for him as a Phillie, but it's time to move on. Just my opinion, but since I am a self-proclaimed "GM", we're not resigning him.

~Carson aka Drama Queen

Los said...

It is frustrating - being a Philadelphia fan in general.

I do think that Gillick is on the right track with this team - some nice young pitchers, a good nucleus to build around. Hey, at least it's been fun watching this team the second half of the year.

GM-Carson said...

All around the Phillies blogsphere fans and authors of the blogs alike seem to be a bit depressed. It may have only been one game, but it was one hell of a bummer!

GM-Carson said...

Just so you know, I changed the web-hit counter, because the new one gives me stats as to the traffic...I started it at 518, as that was where it stood before the change...I wasn't cheating.

Whelkman said...

Lieberthal is welcome on my team as bench/backup for $650K or so. I know he'll never agree to that, but it's still on the table.

Maria said...

Last night's game was depressing but I hold my head up high & I am expecting to see a victory tonight. Plus did anyone else the crowd last night? Everyone is supporting the Phils so let's hope they can pull through. They just need to win two straight games & have the Pads lose two straight & they will control their own destiny. Just Believe my friend! They will make the playoffs!

Matt said...

I have nothing to add about the frustration level we're all at. What's the point in saying it over and over? That just makes me more frustrated because it illustrates that I can't do anything about it. Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I thought your song choice was very appropriate today. Love the weez.

Maria said...

frustration level is high so I'm trying to stay positive :)

GM-Carson said...

Matt- Weezer is the best!

Also, I feel better going into tonight's game due to all the frustration I left out today. I like to wear my emotions on my sleeve, it leaves me feeling better at the end of the day. I'm with Maria...I'm feeling victory tonight! Poor lil' bear cubs ain't gonna know what hit them!

The Rev said...

If they don't take the next two from the Cubs, then this will be known as the series that they blew it.

GM-Carson said...

I'll be pissed if they don't take the next two game. Corey and I are planning on going to the game together on Saturday against the Marlins...that game better still mean something.

GM-Carson said...

Things are looking bad again. Moyer is pitching well enough, but the offense has failed to show up. Wade Miller has 6 k's through 3...pitiful! Burrell strikes out looking with the bases loaded...what the hell?!

GM-Carson said...

Holy hell...Nunez managed to hit well enough or if you saw the hit "not well enough" to knock in 2 big runs. C'mon Phills!

GM-Carson said...

I'm glad we have Jaime Moyer. He has pitched respectably since we got him. Since I'm a GM, I say we pick up his option for next season. It doesn't matter if he'll be 44, he tops out at 85.

The offense still looked bad tonight, but they managed 4 runs...good enough for a win.

Hopefully the Padres lose tonight then we'll only be .5 back...gotta keep winning!

I can now go to bed a happier man.

BloodStripes said...

Hope everyone is feeling better after a win. A loss can really dent the hopes but these Phils will keep us hanging in there to the bitter end. Series wins seem to keep on coming. When the chance to take the WC lead arises they just have to bloody take it. One step higher Phils. Do it!

GM-Carson said...

It is so much better coming to work after a Phils victory. We're still in it, although it's going to be tough. A nice and tidy 11 game win streak might do the trick.